Why do we write? or blog? or have a diary or whatever it is that we use to record our thoughts and feelings? Personally I’ve always enjoyed having something to express my feelings without really sharing with anyone. Sometimes I draw or I colour in my book using the colours to represent my feelings, sometimes I just write in my diary. I don’t know about you but I think I do this because I don’t usually understand how I am feeling and whenever I try expressing it to someone I can see the frustration in their eyes or lack of understanding of what I’m trying to say. Maybe I don’t always explain it right? Or maybe I’m just too emotional? or dramatic maybe?
When I’m happy, it’s okay. Happiness is easy to share. When I’m happy I have more energy to do nice things for others in order to share how happy I am but when I’m sad I feel the same amount of sadness as I do when I’m happy except maybe more because I don’t really know how to always explain it when I’m sad or angry. I would just suddenly feel this strong negative emotion and I don’t know how to explain it to others, I just feel it and I don’t know how to fix it.
So I started off with drawing and my interest grew. I could draw and write way better then I can say anything. Pretty ironic, because people would always describe me as someone with a strong energy, someone who is always open but what they don’t realize is, I’m really not. They don’t even know the half of it.